You've gotta be extra careful
With the things nearest to you
You know the closer you get to something
The tougher it is to see it


      Explain to me this happiness
      That you just got to experience
      Or maybe you are so blessed
      That you cannot even remember


And I'll never take it for granted
It's fine to say "Never give up"
And "Keep chasing your dreams"


     But the more time you spend talking big
     The less you get done
     I'll press that handful of courage against my heart
     And with its help.. survive another day
   
 ...... And I'll never take it for granted..
 ....... Let's go...   ^_ ^




~~   All this time, I used to think pursuing master directly after my degree.. yeah.. It's always been my dream.. becoming lecturer.. And to my surprised.. When the time came for me to decide.. when I was about sending my master form.. headache for 1 week.. Not sure whether working vs master, I made up mind to accept the job offer.. U know why?? I dunno.. Me too.. I wonder why.. scared that I made a wrong exit.. and regret everything.. hahhaa.. eeemm.. whatever it is.. I have made up my mind.. Not sure whether it's Ok or not.. but just hope for a miracle... :)
      

                                    ~ Wishing upon a star.. shining brightly :)

Let the music heal your heart...

Watching 705 Hitz everyday.. Listening to 855 Mix.fm and 852 Hitz.fm during holidays ... made me realized that there were lots of wonderful songs I didn't even know.. Well, my friends told me this and that bla bla bla song was nice.. then only I searched and downloaded it.. What a borink life to listen to same songs.. and go karoke.. singing same songs.. can say ketinggalan zaman kalo bab bab muzik .. hahaha 

       By the way, I downloaded few lovely songs :

    1) Jessica mauboy - What happen to us

    2) Jessica Mauboy - That girl

    3) Cody Simpson - Perfect

    4) Kat Deluna - Dancing tonight

    5) Click 5 - Don't let me go

    6) Skylar grey ft Lupe fiasco - Words I never said

    7) Diddy Dirty Money ft Skylar Grey - Coming home

When mood was not really that good.. listening to music healed the pain, sadness, sorrow etc.. meaningful n cool lyrics make u realize that u're not alone.. hehehe  :)

For movies.. I love channel 702 DIVA ( The Oprah 8am every morning) very inspiring one.. and 701 CSI/ Hawai 5 O.. sometimes watched 104 Cinta Melody.. but i don't really like it.. here, life seemed so cruel and unfair.. so many problems.. end up losing something.Tears for fears and sorrows. hahaha.. Cartoons? yeah.. I did watch that one together with my little brothers.. Not bad.. Sin Chan, Doraemon, etc. macam budak2.. hahaha.. siookkk !!!  

                                                             Aramai tie karoke :p

I will LOVE U more each day... haahhaa :)

I guess that's just how life gonna be...

~   what is this feeling...
         I wake up early in the morning...
         staring at the sky..
         waiting for the sunrise...
         but then... right this moment..
         it's so dark... I'm lost.. 
                                                                what is that sound...
                                                                whisper softly...
                                                                ....... make me wonder..
                                                       is there any light beyond that shadow...




              I guess that's just how life gonna be..I made plan A.. B.. and C..
but.. when the time  comes.. it's just like that.. sounds kinda sad.. isn't it.. when someone starts wishin " wish I have done everythin since the start.. " and even more pathetic one... "Nahh.. let's go play happily" when u know... it's not going to happen.. ha ha ha.. :(
              What is so great about knowin lot of things and yet couldn't do anything about it.. too bad.. hahaaa... eemm.. I have finished my first experiment.. but.. still feel like "something wrong somewhere"... like.. yeahh.. think I should repeat it again... hahaha.. and then... how about the 2nd experiment... next... thesis writing.. and bla bla bla... lot of things yet need to be done. sadiee..
hahaha.. 


Ok.. let see.. I'm gonna write them down..


1) Final year project - experiment 2
2) Final year project - thesis writing
3) 3 subjects with tests and pop quiz :
     *Bot 205 ( physic concepts.. my old memories berkarat already.. need to work hard)
     *BGt314 (need to start reading news.. research.. research.. and research...) giler..hahahaa
     *Akp 202( management : aahhh!! this one is really like sejarah one.. i need extra *external disc
4) CUS life
5) go play..sing.. dance... enjoy..go shopping.. and sleep peacefully... Like nothing happen hahaha  :)


WAIT..!!! I think there's something wrong somewhere..
I should MOVE the 5th one to 1st sequnce.. hahahaa  
I dunno why but....


this morning when I wake up... and I listen to my heart..
It Feels right.. I need more *peace* and *happiness* to go through those pain..
doin things with head spinning around is just wastin my time...
eemm... still.. I need something more that anything else..
I need ur help.. Father.. guide me in Your light.. with ur holy spirit.. :)
and bless me.. 
whatever I do.. amen ..

Be happy !!! 

                                             

This is what I love the most : drink orange juice with a big grin at the beach... U got ur time all over the world..hahaa :)

                                      Miss my home.. sobss sobss.. If i was there.. wanna go play.  hohoho

P/s

1st week of my holidays here... :p

Guess what? after 3 years studying in USM.. and just finished my final semester.. waiting for a long break a.k.a cuti2 malaysia made me felt really excited..I meant extremely excited bla bla bla .. *speechless*.. hahahaa.. Well,  I had listed down few things that needed to be done during holidays... hehehe.. 

      ~ before that,  one very important thing I need to put in my mind.. I only got  1 and half month of holidays since I'll start working on 1st July 2011... precisely 1 month and 20 days for my aramai tie.. hahaha.. which meant I really need to enjoy myself to the fullest... while I'm still here in SABAH..

~~~ Few things I must do during holidays:

1) Drive everyday to be a competent @ skillful driver... since I got my P almost 1 year already but still I didn't get used to driving... ayoohhh. hahaa

2) My former supervisor asked me to write a journal draft and publish it.. It will be based on my research during my Final Year Project.. thought i could go and rumamai everyday.. NO-NO !! still have to do something like this.. cisss. haha

3) Keep an eye on my result.. wait for actual result to come out and fill in SPA a.k.a permohonan kerja kerajaan.. This one is a MUST.. since I am JPA student..and bound to JPA contract.. if not, have to pay everything.. my bad. ahahaa

4) I must go to at least one of the beach in Sabah >> REUNION at  Pulau Manukan... with my schoolmastes during high school.. well.. Cheer up girl.. It's been long time I didn't meet any of them.. tekejut kan?? hahahaa

5) Spend more time with my family here.. try to be a good sister .. Try to not overdo a.k.a tease my siblings.. Hope so!! got that feeling that I won't change anyway.. hahaa

6) Meet my BFFs as often as possible... molisau.. lorraine.. mar-kolet, heidi... they're all my besties since I was small.. Missing them... hehehe :p

7) There're still more things need to do.. and be writen here.. but.. never mind.. I'll keep it short : JUST HAVE FUN MARCELA... whatever it is, cherish the small things in ur life.. hahaha

                 " 2nd day my holidays here: Steamboat with my dear friends here... Luv u all.. " hehe :)

Simple but nice.. that's the words for today... heheehehe :)

P/S At the same time... bole round2 cari tanak wagu.. kidding.. hahaha :p

#### “Dream as if you'll live forever, live as if you'll die today.”

Ku sayang kamu.. hahaha >> marcela :)